Given up Hope

So I have officially given up trying to induce my own labor. Nothing has worked so I guess I will sit around and twiddle my thumbs. I've been trying to keep the house clean just in case when I do go into labor, the house is ready for visitors. Well, I know it will probably happen on the day my house is the messiest! Earlier I was having cramping and pains so I got all excited thinking today was the day. When it went away, I started cleaning and getting some last minute things done. I kept waiting for something new to happen. Nope.......nothing more, so I cooked dinner. Nothing has happened since. Darn it! I guess I'll let Mason decide now considering we are on his schedule for the rest of our lives. My new bikini came in the mail today. Depressing for 2 reasons. #1 I thought by the time I got it in the mail I would have had the baby and #2 it was not attractive trying it on 10 months pregnant. I took some pictures of me in it to be funny and thought about posting one on here....but no, I don't have the nerve. HaHa. Maybe I should trash the house and then Mason will want to come out....but I just can't bring myself to do it. Waiting and waiting.....and waiting some more.....